Firecracker

I have mucho to get off my chest. No idea where to begin. Oh! And its not negative, just pet peeves and some other random thoughts.
I am staying with my friend this week and it stinks, not having a way to get around. Coming home to a place that isn't yours. I can't wait to get back to my place. Not that I don't enjoy their company and what they're doing for me, its just can't completely relax because its not home. I never did do well with sleepovers.
So I've been thinking about moving to Chattanooga. Which I would love to do but I need more of a reason to. I'm praying Sergeant Silver can work her magic and get me ADSW. I really love working with her and at the unit. It feels productive I guess is the best word. And I have talking with my friend about being roommates if and when I move here. But this is my thing. She is amazing, great company but we are different and I don't think living together would be fun. I like stablility as far as what I'm doing during the day, mostly planned stuff and she is just more carefree I think when it came to house chores and guests it would become annoying. I've had roommates before and I love my me time. Coming home and its mine and I can do what I want and relax. So. I'm just not sure. We will see.
Guys. Always a popular topic. Its funny, as much as I am anti-relationship right now how much I notice other's romantic lives. Not as in I want that, as in I see them and think, "why do you want that?" I have a lot of growing up to do, I need to stop thinking that my thoughts are common sense. Because, its just not. God gives everyone different experiences at different times to teach us things. And, as much as I see someone is unhappy, maybe it just doesn't phase them. Maybe, its fine to them. I just don't want added stress. A man is supposed to bring out the best in me and vice versa. I see that most guys and people in general take my happiness for naiveness. And yea, I'm naive, just not nearly as much as people like to assume. I have substance, a lot, okay guys? And the ones who do love my giddiness are either amazing friends that have that mindset that they can set the world on fire and are happy people or they are creepy old men that think the age difference is hot and want to get in my pants. Disgusting. These are the ones that like to invade my bubble and stand way too close to me or constantly touch me, pat my leg touch my arm or something. EW. GROSS. GO AWAY.
Lets see what else?
Oh my goodness. I am SO READY FOR SUMMER. NICE WEATHER. This crappy weather really takes away from the spring in my step that I like to have. It puts a kink in my muscles, throws a fork in my mood. I'm just dying with this awful weather. Ugh.
I'm ready to kill it and be running again and sweating and playing rugby...OUTDOORS. I HATE BEING INSIDE. Aw man and I want some new clothes. Goodness. This is making me depressed just thinking about it. I'm for real going to move to Miami when I get back from deployment. I'm ready to shine. Even if it sounds silly, the weather brings out the best in me. And I'm ready to always be my best. Idk how to compromise for such a long time. Idk. Maybe I can if I get a workout room or maybe join a gym. But what about outdoors? :((((
Okay. I'm done whining. Last thing...I LOVE RUGBYYYYY!!!!!!!